song in the dark

kiss me tho the blackness is darker than the night

whisper sweet nothings because they are sweet and they mean nothing

hold me like you mean it and love me like it's right

just kiss me, damn it, cuz i'm here with you tonight

you feel more like a stranger tho you're lying next to me

a lover's song, a sad lament, a picture on the wall

the breath you left's escaped me and i can't recall its feel

i'm a worn and weathered bagpipe blasting out a sad ole song

something about nothing

there's something about nothing that holds a certain appeal
the blankness that gives opportunity
the void that has nothing to say
but waits patiently for the first glimmer of inspiration
the first definition of identity
eking out an existence, a meaning, a purpose
one bit at a time
hard at first, sometimes unsure
until at last a direction presents itself
a path begins to take form
pitching and bending, creaking and groaning
discovering something new
but it all starts from nothing
there's just something about nothing

betrayal

is it a crisis that brings one to betray

or a conscious decision to go the other way

do you set your mind to hurt someone or accidentally act

was it a presumptive trust or one built in fact

a confidence you gladly broke to keep your pride intact

socially let's play the game, pretend it's all alright

later then let's all skulk off and whisper in the night

you smile, i cringe - wondering what is real

i cry, you pounce - here's our chance to falsely heal

betrayal weakens to the core

shakes it all up and leaves a mess

wondering if there's a place to start

or if this is simply just the end

prayer

God, You are my defense, my welfare.
You protect me, cover me and give me place under Your wings.
When I can find no other place - You keep and preserve me in a place of stability and peace and mercy. You tread forward, leading me and teaching me to recognize and be acquainted with Your course.
You allow me to exercise  in your teachings and pour mercy on me when I fail.
You blanket me with a sureness. I am running to You - hiding in You.
Cause me to hear Your truth - see Your truth.
Arrest my heart in Your hands and quiet me.
I am lost, I am hurting - I know You are the answer but I lack the sureness.
Have I run too far, pushed too hard? Surely Your reach is never-ending and Your love greater still. Teach me to wait - for You - on You - in You.
Let peace be my path, righteousness be my manner and joy be my countenance.
Oh how I need You and am desperate for You to save me.

[Psalm 25:1-5; Psalm 91:4]

sometimes

my middle name should be "sometimes"
"always" seems to run and hide
sometimes i cry and sometimes i smile
sometimes i can be vulnerable
but sometimes i get locked up
sometimes i climb out of a hole
just to jump in another
sometimes i'm focused and sometimes i lose sight
sometimes you love me and sometimes you avoid me
sometimes i'm silly and sometimes too serious
sometimes i learn and sometimes i teach
sometimes i have the answers and sometimes i'm lost
sometimes predictable and sometimes spontaneous
confused? ya ... me too.......
sometimes.

process

I am in process

Currently updating

Ever trusting

Rarely knowing

Always praying

Tho I don't know the end result

I know the One who wrote the story

Tho I don't see every step

I know the hands that hold me

I am in process

It's not always easy

It's not always fun

It doesn't always feel good

It doesn't always look good

But I'm growing

I'm learning

I'm changing

I'm evolving

I'm increasing

I am in process

Ever trusting

Always praying

peace

a cool breeze flirts with the sun's warm rays

my skin bristles and dews

the puffy white clouds wander listlessly across the bright blue expanse

the trees whisper to each other as the air circles 'round their branches

i close my eyes and turn full into the sunlight

the breeze dances across my features and sings of it's adventures

telling me of where it's been and where it's yet to go

i smile knowing that each breath I take came from somewhere far away

o, to be the wind flying here and there

my mind is full of carefree thoughts

my breathing slow and deep

i can hear the stillness

this, yes this, is peace.